“My Recovery Guest Author Interview Wrap Up From Peoples Internet Radio”!

Hello and Welcome Recovery Friends, Seekers, and Visitors,


I had been invited to Peoples Internet Radio by host, Stephen Roberts to join him this past Friday evening to talk about my current book, problem & addicted gambling, recovery, and a few more hot topics. And the interview was so awesome, we where on for just about 2 hours! And as promised, here is a wrap up of some of the topics we discussed, and recovery resources I had given out during the show.


I’d like to first say, Thank You again to my host,  Stephen Roberts for inviting me to his show. Well, I also kind of invited myself really. LOL. I say this because as some of you know, I do book & social media promoting for other authors. And, Stephen has had 2 of my clients on his show earlier. It’s actually how we met. He is such a great guy with a fun sense of humor.

A little about Peoples Internet Radio, Seeking Sovereign Solutions, http://peoplesinternetradio.com/ it is a movement for and by the people to take our country of America back! It is a place where podcasts are broadcast and heard by hosts who invite others to speak up, help inform, and to raise awareness of many issues facing our country. And one of those issues impacting our communities is the ever-expanding problems of Indian Casinos & State Lotteries. That was only one of the issues Stephen and I spoke about. We talked about my book, Addicted To Dimes, (Confessions of a Liar and a Cheat), which is my personal story of life touched by childhood sex abuse, discipline abuse, living with mental and emotional illness and disorders, and gambling and alcohol addictions.


We also had people calling and typing in through Facebook, as my interview was live streamed on 3 different podcast links. We even had people commenting as far away from Ireland, Scotland, and United Kingdom! I do have to say a ‘Special’ shout out to “Jimmy & Sean” for your questions, and very kind comments during the show! I also explained my own personal devastation I caused with my gambling addiction in my life. Some don’t always agree with me about the why’s of someone choosing addiction in the first place.
My experience is that, like Jimmy mentioned in his comment, when in rehab or treatment, it seems the professionals just treat the symptoms, and not some of the underlying issues that may have led us to use addictions to cope with life challenges and traumatic life events.
From a relapse prevention point of view, those life events if we are not ready for them, can be a source of relapse. I know it was difficult for me in this area as well. The first failed suicide attempt in 2002 of mine,
from 2 life events that hit me hard was two people close to me passed away of cancer. Then my mom passed in 2003. So life, if not ready can cause a relapse. You need to have a plan in place.


When all that happened to me I went via the hospital to an addictions/mental health crisis center. That’s when my primary doctor, and the center psychiatrist found I had been suffering Bipolar 2 severe depression, PTSD, OCD, and mild anxiety mania. So in 2002 is when I was started on bipolar and anti-depressant meds.
So those were some of the underlying issues that compounded, and seem to set me up for some type of addictions to cope, escape and numb out from the grief, and from my past traumatic childhood.

Of course, as I discussed with Stephen that when you are raised in a household that you speak of things outside our home about anything that might bring shame to the family, and to not know there are healthy ways to get help and process past hurt and pain. Then many do use addiction to try to escape from it. To not feel those unpleasant feelings and emotions. So it wasn’t until I started work on processing my past pains, and working with an addiction specialist, who taught my also how to break down the cycle of my addiction. A cycle has a beginning, a middle, and an end. Here is what it looks like.


See, will get Triggered by something that affects us in life. Could be life trauma, stress of a bad day at work, a financial crisis, for me it was Paydays. The build up would start a few days before a payday. Urges or cravings like on the chart. Then the Ritual comes into play. This maybe, again for me was trying to calculate how much money would be available to gamble with. What bills could I put off until the next payday. That type of diseased thinking. Sadly, when I crossed the line into uncontrolled addicted gambling, the bills never got paid, and the money would be gone. Then the actual act of using, or for was addicted, uncontrolled gambling. Then the last part of the cycle is the guilt, shame, self-loathing, remorse.

But the one difference with gambling is the constant lies, covering up what I’d done, find money to pay the debts that I should have with our paychecks and on and on. It’s exhausting! And until you learn in treatment, and in support group meetings those tools and skills to interrupt and break the cycle? You’ll keep using over and over wishing for a different outcome that never comes! Part of my experience of addiction did come from my past childhood abuse. And the verbal can cut deep into our mind and thoughts. Verbal, or psychological abuse can sink in when were children. Because our minds are like a sponge! It is also from my sex abusers as well. They threaten you so much that you start to believe you’re a bad girl, damaged, and if you tell, no one will believe you, that your telling lies.

I still to this day feel those feeling of those men telling me that, grooming me with treats, then turn around and threaten me with verbal trash! And like I said in my interview, even though Gamblers Anonymous tells us that we can recover without knowing the reasons why we became addicted gamblers, but through therapy, I know some of why I was using addicted gambling with alcohol. It was to not feel the pains of my childhood any longer.
Today, I’m not a victim any longer! I advocate, speak-up and speak-out about childhood abuse and trauma! As it’s the only way I know how to shatter the STIGMA around this devastating issues. I know that it wasn’t my fault what happened to me. So I now let others who endured the same, that they are not at fault either. All that I do to try and help others was given to me by my Father in Heaven. Another part of recovery is to learn from what we triumph over. We see our character defects, and learn to correct them to become better human beings..

Here are just a few facts I shared about gambling addiction on the radio show.1% of our population right now are Problem Gambler’s.
Out of the 16+million problem gamblers in just the United States, half this number are now your college bound young adults.  The Productivity Commission in  Australia reports, for every one problem gambler, they have a negative effect on 7 other people.Our government makes gambling legal for profits through Casinos and States Lottery.
And if you want to know what is being done about it in your State and communities besides raising crime rates, and more friends and loved ones becoming problem gamblers, then visit http://StopPredatoryGambling.org/in-your-state/

For help and information about problem gambling, visit the good people of The National Council on Problem Gambling, http://www.ncpgambling.org For warning signs & info please visit http://www.helpguide.org and  http://www.gamblersanonymous.org/ga/hotlines/

There are more helpful ‘Recovery Resource’ pages here on my blog with more important websites and phone numbers. And finally, if you happened to miss the internet show? Here is the link you can hear the whole show at your own leisure. When you clink on the link, a little box will pop up and just hit the arrow to play it.
Just in case it doesn’t pop up, here is the full link address:

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In closing, this quote truly is important. No on person who becomes an addict just happens to wake up one day and tell themselves, “Gee, I think today I’ll choose to become an addict and destroy my life” …
Yes, life is full of positive wonders and possibilities, but life also can hurt, be painful to some of us.
NO, not excuses, just insights of how some can lose their way.

And yes, it is our choice on how we handle the rough patch’s. But remember, many people are not healthy, strong, or had positive role models, or a healthy family dynamic growing up. Like I explained to Stephen,
I have forgiven my parents, and have forgiven my sex abusers, and my siblings who too had hurt me, as my spiritual Father has taught me. You have to in order to take back your life. It’s also what I learned in treatment and therapy. I have learned many life lessons on this journey called life. Now my passion is to pass some of it to others.

Much Happiness and Blessings on your Recovery Journey,
Catherine Townsend-Lyon, Author of, “Addicted To Dimes” …



“Please Join Me In Fighting *STIGMA*~ For People with Mental Illness & in Addiction Recovery”


Mental Health Awareness RibbonMental Health Awareness WEEK……*JOIN ME*


AS a member of NAMI, and a woman with, Bipolar 2 disorder, Panic with Agoraphobia, Manic Depression problems, Adult Attention Deficit Disorder, and in Recovery from addiction…..I KNOW ABOUT “STIGMA,” Which even runs Ramped in my Family. They choose to IGNORE what Mental Illness is about.

I KNOW how others suffer from the many Mental & Emotional Disorders,…..how we are at times TREATED by the Public as “FREAKS” or be called “POSTAL”…..”NOT NORMAL”……”SLOW”……”STUPID”…….and more. Also the Stigma about having to take Medications, in which I was once called a Drug Addict! This to me is very SAD, as I thought this Country had gotten WAY BEYOND THIS POINT???……”GUESS NOT”….”Just Sayin”….

I KNOW what it’s like to be FIRED from JOB’S,……because I was to SLOW, or wasn’t Concentrating good enough, or not UNDERSTANDING DIRECTIVE well.  AND let me tell you, after having a 19+year  CAREER IN “BANKING & FINANCE”…..At least I KNOW I’m a HARD WORKING EMPLOYEE, but I gave UP looking for Part-Time work.

WHY?…..WHY are people still SO in the “DARK” about others who suffer from MENTAL & EMOTIONAL illness?

I COULD go on and on about my HISTORY of others not WANTING to understand MY & OTHERS DAILY LIFE CHALLENGES with Mental Disorders…….WHY do others have to be so CRUEL at times, or CHOOSE to not have Empathy, Compassion, or understanding for those who suffer. DO THEY think we wanted to have these DISORDERS?…..I know I wish I didn’t, but I had to accept MY MENTAL DISABILITIES & CHALLENGES, and CHOOSE TO ADVOCATE FOR THOSE’S WHO CAN NOT, and I MAKE EACH DAY THE BEST I CAN.


Every year during the first full week of October, we observe Mental Illness Awareness Week and break new ground in the fight against stigma as we broaden the national conversation on mental health.   Throughout the week, as always, NAMI will be working hard to change attitudes through outreach, education and advocacy.   With your gift today, you too can make a difference in the lives of individuals and families affected by mental illness.   It’s time.mental_illness_awareness_week

Mental Illness Awareness Week, Oct. 6-12, 2013

In 1990, the U.S. Congress established the first full week of October as Mental Illness Awareness Week (MIAW) in recognition of NAMI’s efforts to raise mental illness awareness. Since then, mental health advocates across the country have joined with others in their communities to sponsor activities, large or small, for public education about mental illness.

MIAW coincides with the National Day of Prayer for Mental Illness Recovery and Understanding (Oct. 8) and National Depression Screening Day (Oct. 10.)

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NAMI, the acronym for the National Alliance on Mental Illness, is a grass roots, self help, support and advocacy organization dedicated to improving the lives of families who have relatives with a brain disorder (mental illness). This includes the families of persons diagnosed with a mental illness, relatives and friends, mental health professionals, and all who share NAMI’s vision and mission.

NAMI South Bay is an affiliate of National and State NAMI. NAMI South Bay serves the general area from El Segundo on the north to Palos Verdes on the south; from the Beach Cities on the west to Carson/Wilmington on the east. NAMI South Bay has regular monthly meetings with a Caring and Sharing Support Group and Speaker Sessions, Family to Family and Familia de Familia Programs, Peer to Peer and Connections Programs (ongoing support group for persons with a mental illness). NAMI South Bay supports other programs such as NARSAD, dedicated to the service of persons with a mental illness and their families. Also, NAMI South Bay participates in the NAMI Los Angeles County Walk. Please consider joining and participating in NAMI South Bay.

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*THANK YOU  to ANNMARIE for Nominating me for *The LIEBSTER Award* for my Post here on *Mental Health Awareness Week*


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How Many More need to DIE? ~~ You Don’t Know “JACK” About Mental & Emotional Illness!

ANOTHER SAD HEADLINE…..SO How many more is it going to take to DIE because of many Un-Diagnosed Emotional or Mental illness?…….Why do others JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND, or WANT TO?…….Is Ignorance REALLY BLISS? Sorry, but I’m NOT sorry to be so forward about that FACTS of mental illness, addictions, recovery, and many emotional Disorders.

Gia Allemand Dead of Apparent Suicide….Why does it always have to be when someone dies or commits SUICIDE to SHOCK people into Compassion, Empathy, or Understanding? WHEN IT’S TOO LATE?

Gia Allemand Dead of Apparent Suicide
Gia Allemand
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Gia Allemand, The Bachelor contestant who competed for Jake Pavelka’s heart on season 14, died of an apparent suicide. She was 29.She was found Monday night in her New Orleans home by her boyfriend, NBA player Ryan Anderson of the Pelicans, her family says in a statement.
Anderson called 911 and Allemand was transported to the hospital, where she was in critical condition on life support.”Due to a critical loss of brain and organ function, life support was withdrawn” on Wednesday, the family statement says. “Ms. Allemand passed away peacefully with her mother, boyfriend, and other lifelong friends by her side. As a practicing Christian, Gia did receive the sacrament of last rites.” 
“Loved ones and fans will remember Gia Allemand as a caring woman who loved her family and was well-known for her compassion towards animals and mission to rescue homeless pets.”…….
***UPDATED 8/21/2013/***

Report: Gia Allemand’s suicide prompted by argument

Alleged fight with boyfriend, suicide note and more details emerge about tragic death……

Former “Bachelor” star Gia Allemand hanged herself after allegedly fighting with her boyfriend Ryan Anderson. The reality TV regular was rushed to a hospital on Aug. 12 and ultimately died two days later after an apparent suicide attempt. Now, more details of her tragic death have been revealed, as editors at TMZ.com have obtained police documents which state that Allemand wrapped a vacuum cleaner cord wrap around her neck multiple times and then tied it to the end of her staircase. The documents also reveal that Allemand left a suicide note bequeathing all her property to her mom.

The gossip site reports that Allemand may have been set off earlier in the day, when she accused her NBA pro boyfriend of cheating on her. He allegedly told her that he didn’t love her anymore. The next time he saw her, Anderson found his girlfriend with the cord wrapped around her neck. She had been deprived of oxygen for more than half an hour. A funeral for Allemand is set for Thursday in her hometown of Queens, New York..

***SO sad Gia’s death was only over an argument??? ***


Lisa Robin Kelly in 2000‘*That ’70s Show’ star Lisa Robin Kelly dead at 43*

Lisa Robin Kelly, the actress who played Laurie Forman on the FOX sitcom “That ’70s Show” and had experienced  legal and substance-abuse troubles in recent years, died Wednesday, her agent said, on Thursday. She was 43.

Kelly died while attending a rehab facility while attempting to battle her  demons, the agent said.

“Unfortunately Lisa Robin Kelly passed away last evening. Lisa had  voluntarily checked herself into a treatment facility early this week where she  was battling the addiction problems that have plagued her these past few years,”  the agent said. “I spoke to her on Monday and she was hopeful and  confident, looking forward to putting this part of her life behind her. Last  night, she lost the battle.”

A cause of death has not yet been released.

Since exiting the series in 2003 — she was replaced by Christina Moore for  the show’s sixth season — Kelly had grabbed more headlines for her legal  troubles than her acting career. The actress was arrested in November 2012 for  allegedly assaulting her husband in North Carolina, which followed a charge of  corporal injury on a spouse in March of that year. (Those charges were  dropped.)

While Kelly denied the March assault, she did admit to struggling with  alcohol abuse, telling “Good Morning America” interviewer Abbie Boudreau that  she developed a drinking problem after suffering a miscarriage.

“I had lost a baby, and as a result of that, I lost everything, and I was  abusing alcohol, which I no longer do,” the actress, who claimed to be sober for  three months at the time of the interview, said. “With ‘That ’70s Show,’ I was  guilty of the drinking problem and I ran. And I am not running from this. And I  have paid my dues. And if I can make it through this, I can make it through  anything.” ……………


**”I have been that close myself to Suicide and Death TWICE…..and for some Higher Power at BE…(My GOD) pulled me back and whispered in my ear, “Catherine it is not your time, you have too much unfinished business here on earth”,….I’m to work Through you to help you Speak out about MANY things.” And you know what?……He was right!” “My first order of business was to write my story of addiction, childhood trauma, abuse, and, Daily Challenges with my Mental illness.

I try to help *SHATTER the STIGMA* around people in Recovery from Addictions, and to STAND UP for others who suffer from Mental/Emotional illness! I say this ALL the time that EVERYONE in their Life has a Story to tell. Here on my blog, I continue my Journey, and write Frequently  of what it is like to Struggle with Mental Illness! My gambling addiction is what brought out my Severe Symptoms of Bi-polar.”

“Then in Recovery, I found, and was left with Anxiety, Panic, and Agoraphobia Disorders. Not to mention the 7 meds I take daily to try to function like a Normal Person what ever that maybe??? YES….I’m a work in progress, and  YES,……I’ve worked hard in my almost 7yrs in Recovery. But what I don’t understand is how others can be Cruel at times to people with mental disabilities. That is why I speak out! This needs to stop!! People need to be a little more educated on what WE go through on a DAILY Basis. So here are a few descriptions of some Mental illness & Disorders definitions”……….


” Panic disorder with agoraphobia is an anxiety disorder in which a person has attacks of intense fear and anxiety. There is also a fear of being in places where it is hard to escape, or where help might not be available.A.D.A.M.

Agoraphobia usually involves fear of crowds, bridges, or of being outside alone.

This article discusses panic disorder with agoraphobia. For information on panic disorder itself, see also: Panic disorder

Causes, incidence, and risk factors

The exact causes of panic disorder and agoraphobia are unknown. Because panic attacks often occur in areas or situations where they have happened in the past, panic may be a learned behavior. Agoraphobia sometimes occurs when a person has had a panic attack and begins to fear situations that might lead to another panic attack.

Anyone can develop a panic disorder, but it usually starts around age 25. Panic disorder is more common in women than men.


Panic attacks involve short periods of intense anxiety symptoms, which peak within 10 minutes. Panic attack symptoms can include:

  • Chest pain or discomfort
  • Choking
  • Dizziness or faintness
  • Fear of being out of control
  • Fear of dying
  • Fear of “going crazy”
  • Hot flashes or chills
  • Nausea or other stomach distress
  • Numbness or tingling
  • Racing heart
  • Shortness of breath
  • Sweating
  • Trembling

With agoraphobia, you avoid places or situations because you do not feel safe in public places. The fear is worse when the place is crowded.

Symptoms of agoraphobia include:

  • Being afraid of spending time alone
  • Being afraid of places where escape might be hard
  • Being afraid of losing control in a public place
  • Depending on others
  • Feeling detached or separated from others
  • Feeling helpless
  • Feeling that the body is not real
  • Feeling that the environment is not real
  • Having an unusual temper or agitation
  • Staying in the house for long periods of time


*Bi-Polar 2 Disorder*:

What Is Bipolar II Disorder?

Bipolar II disorder (pronounced “bipolar two”) is a form of mental illness. Bipolar II is similar to bipolar I disorder, with moods cycling between high and low over time.

However, in bipolar II disorder, the “up” moods never reach full-on mania. The less-intense elevated moods in bipolar II disorder are called hypomanic episodes, or hypomania.

A person affected by bipolar II disorder has had at least one hypomanic episode in life. Most people with bipolar II disorder also suffer from episodes of depression. This is where the term “manic depression” comes from.

In between episodes of hypomania and depression, many people with bipolar II disorder live normal lives.
Nearly everyone with bipolar II disorder develops it before age 50. People with an immediate family member who have bipolar are at higher risk.

What Are the Symptoms of Bipolar II Disorder?

During a hypomanic episode, elevated mood can manifest itself as either euphoria (feeling “high”) or as irritability.

Symptoms during hypomanic episodes include:

  • Flying suddenly from one idea to the next
  • Rapid, “pressured,” and loud speech
  • Increased energy, with hyperactivity and a decreased need for sleep

People experiencing hypomanic episodes are often quite pleasant to be around. They can often seem like the “life of the party” — making jokes, taking an intense interest in other people and activities, and infecting others with their positive mood.

What’s so bad about that, you might ask? Hypomania can also lead to erratic and unhealthy behavior. People in hypomanic episodes might spend money they don’t have, seek out sex with people they normally wouldn’t, and engage in other *impulsive or risky behaviors. (My past Gambling Addiction was risky behavior)*

Also, the vast majority of people with bipolar II disorder experience significant depressive episodes. These can occur soon after hypomania subsides, or much later. Some people cycle back and forth between hypomania and depression, while others have long periods of normal mood in between episodes.

Untreated, an episode of hypomania can last anywhere from a few days to several months. Most commonly, symptoms continue for a few weeks to a few months.

Depressive episodes in bipolar II disorder are similar to “regular” clinical depression, with depressed mood, loss of pleasure, low energy and activity, feelings of guilt or worthlessness, and thoughts of suicide. Depressive symptoms of bipolar disorder can last weeks, months, or years……..


So I hope this helps clear up a little of the *STIGMA* about Mental & Emotional illness. To allow others to have some understanding of the Challenges we face each day. NO,……It’s not about a “Pity-Party” nor a “Poor Me I’m a Victim”….NOT AT ALL, it’s about having compassion and understanding. To not judge people by their Illness. It’s about letting others have some Insight as to what it’s like.

AS, my Recovery has taught me, I have NO CONTROL over PEOPLE, PLACES, OR THINGS, but NO WHERE DOES IT SAY  that I can not SPEAK OUT about my suffering either, and SPEAK for others who suffer from these Disorders as well.

Your are not alone in this fight**The National Suicide Hotline~~1-800-273-8255**

*Spread the word! You are not alone in this fight when it comes to mental illness*


It’s Time to take action for individuals and families living with mental illness. Mental Illness affects 1 in 4 or nearly 60 million Americans every year. It’s Time to provide support, educate our peers and play our part.

NAMI is the official partner of Lifetime on “Call Me Crazy: A Five Film” to help shed light on mental illness and encourage understanding and conversation.
It's Time to Connect, To Speak Out, To Make a Difference

*So I hope many will learn something by my Blog Post Today, and to Share with others of my *HOPE* of Educating others of MY Mental Health Disorders & Recovery from addiction.
May God Bless You All! *YOU CAN HELP SUPPORT ME IN MY FIGHT and Help me continue to Write, Blog, and Speak of Recovery, Addiction, and Mental/Emotional illness by DONATING TO MY FUNDRAISER TODAY AT: http://www.YouCaring.com/Help-A-Neighbor/Help-A-Penniless-Author-/78315
*Author, Catherine Townsend-Lyon*

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